30 December 2010

in the midst of the storm


Today I received some hard news.
My dad (who was diagnosed with cancer in October) went in for his second surgery
to remove tumors under his collarbone and on his neck. 
The doctors were not successful.
The tumor is larger than expected and embedded in a major artery.
They will not attempt another surgery.
Radiation and chemo are not viable options.

Reality is setting in,
my Dad will not be around forever.

I wonder how long he'll get to enjoy his new granddaughter.
I wonder if he'll be here for Sam or Ava's next birthdays.
I wonder if he'll enjoy another Christmas with the family.

So many thoughts are swirling through my head.
So many questions that there are no answers to.

But one thing I do know.
My Jesus is in control.
He is my Comfort and Peace,
the Arms That Will Carry Me,
my Assurance and Hope.

So in this moment
I will look to Him and take refuge in His strength.
Tomorrow (or the next hour) has it's own troubles.
But right now I will choose to rest in the soothing embrace of my Savior.


4 comments:

  1. I just read your post, Lis, and you've chosen the best mindset to have. As much as we think we are in control of our lives the reality is that only God is. With that truth in mind we'll make as many memories with our family as we possibly can and thank God for each and every day. Love you much, Mom

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  2. My heart goes out to you and your family Lisa. You seem to have the right attitude. My Dad was also diagnosed with cancer and he was with us for 3 more years after that. It is a hard thing to go through but I know God will guide you every step of the way. I pray that you, your Dad and family will see and feel God's Love each and every day.

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